I'm often told that I can't find a job because I'm doing something wrong. I present the question to them each time. I ask the same question and no one, no even former employers, can answer it without finally drawing the inevitable conclusions. Am I qualified for the jobs that I apply for? Check! Do I have good references? Check! Do I have a positive can-do attitude? Check! So, when I find these questions answered, I ask what am I doing wrong? They have no responds, sometimes a shoulder shrug and a quick change of subject. Let me explain. I do not walk into a room and introduce myself as "Hi, I'm Amanda, I'm a Lesbians." But I may as well do just that. It just sort of doesn't have to be said. Even at my girliest, the first real conversations are always - are you a lesbian..? And I always answer honestly. Yes, I am. This is always the problem I have found. Even if I were to try - and trust me, try I have - I can't hide who I am. In small towns full of people who read the Bible and interpret it as real life with no other alternative, its hard to find genuine acceptance. This brings me to my point. Someone asked me, well, why don't you just move somewhere that's friendlier to gays. Well, fuck that. No. I will not move to be accepted but I will move that acceptance be created where I am. I do not disagree with people having faith, having religion, having opinions. I do tho have a problem when that faith, that religion, and those opinions prevent me from having basic human rights that even criminals are insured, I have a proem. And if I move, the bigoted ass monkeys who think that bullying someone into changing or running the person out of town are ok ways to treat any human beings, its letting them win. Its been said that one can not change a situation from the outside, one must be on the inside to make a difference. Acceptance and equality among EVERYone is all the change that I want to encite.